England X Reader: Under the Rain

Sitting and crying on the bench...
Letting the rain falls on me...
So lonely...

Too much sadness...
No person to comfort me...
Am I still part of this world?

Those words always came to my mind everytime I visit my family's grave, People think I'm strange, so I don't have any friends, I'm always being bullied, Everytime I got bullied, my depression increases that leads me hurting myself even more.

Wounds on my body...
Bruises scattered on my face...
Scar in my heart...

Am I born to be unloved?

Now... I'm thinking of commititing suicide, They don't care won't they? I brought a revolver inside of my pocket. They don't care if they saw me...

'So many people passing by...
They just looked at me strangely...
Think that I'm going crazy...

I'm just a simple girl that wants
to be loved, there's nothing wrong
with that right?

It's just a simple wish...
Why it can't be granted?
or am I too arrogant to wish?

The rain won't stop, I heard that there's typhoon coming today, I don't care. They don't care if I die today, Maybe they'll become happier?

I suddenly heard someone calling me by my name, maybe It's an angel? Time for me to go to heaven? I don't think so, I'm probably going to hell. When I looked straight ahead, I saw a man with an umbrella running towards me but the gun was already aimed on my temple. Does he want to watch me die?

I don't know why he hugged me and
said...

"___! Stop this nonsense! and why you're holding a gun!?" he threw the gun, thanks to him, I couldn't find it.

"You don't know nothing!" I walked out but he caught a grip on me and hugged me again, making sure I couldn't escape again. Why this man won't leave me alone?

"Listen ____, You don't have to kill yourself just for a pathetic reason"

"Let go of me!"

"No!"

"The world isn't that cruel as you think, you just need to adjust, that's all ___..."

Is this the feeling of someone cared about you?
Care? or just pitying me?

"Say, want to live with me from now on?"